So my blog doesn't seem like a constant downer I have to do a little shout out for my homeboy. Next week Matt's company can officially offer him a permanent position. This means salary, benefits, job security, and discount cost on bulk sour cream opportunities! All I can say is that I am so proud of my big strong man. I have been the first to criticized his work ethic in the past, but at this job it seems to be a whole new Matt. He is motivated, challenged, and most importantly awesome at what he does. They recognize him for doing a good job and he continues to turn around and show them why he kicks ass all over again. This is a far cry from the call center slacker I met less than 5 yrs ago. So congrats to my hubby...thanks for kicking ass!
Here is it 12:26 on a Tuesday morning and I sit here wondering where the day has gone. I woke up with the intention of being productive. Of course this goes out the window. My attention span is that of a fly, I can commit to 5 minutes of work and one hour of wasting time. This pattern has not proven to be very successful for me during a summer of 5 classes. The thing is I am very capable of doing the work, I just cannot seem to focus and of course I am the worse offender in a class being run by the future head of my degree. Yes, that is correct, stating in the fall this man will be the head cheese and all I have done is turned every single assignment in late. I can sense his displeasure tone in the emails he sends to me, but thankfully he has not come right out and told me I suck. There is still 2 weeks left of the class so this could actually happen though. I feel that I took my degree online to allow me to complete school 1) quickly and 2) in lieu of those minor bumps that happen in the road....but in reality I am using those bumps as bigger excuses then they should be because in reality I am a pretty intelligent person. For some reason though that intelligence and drive that fueled me to get my masters is lost, perhaps on a vacation of it's own. I need to find that girl again, and quickly. It will only be a matter of time until I have that instructor who could give a flying fuck about what went wrong and why I couldn't get something done. I cannot allow myself to fail at this! School is the only thing I have been
consistently good at my entire life....other than procrastination that is.
I woke up today wanting to be productive and perhaps creative. Those plans went through the window when Matt and I did not wake up until 11 a.m. and did not get out of the house until 4. I did accomplish a few things today and I have documented them in a photo essay below...
First, I organized my necklace collection. I have a growing collection of costume jewelry that spends most of it's time in a tabgled clump. I bought some hooks from Target and waaalaaaa:
A much needed improvement....next step earnings.
Secondly, I needed to fuel my creative desire. I saw the perfect thing at Target to help me....a cat sailor collar. So I dressed Lewis up are the sailor he is and of course Roxanne was jealous, so I dressed her up as his first mate.
"A-Hoy!!"
Roxanne's jealousy is obvious
First mate Roxanne
I lost the eye patch...so this had to do.
It's midnight, and for the third night in a row I sit here at my computer trying to complete this
one particular assignment. I am capable of doing it- but for some reason my brain is resisting the process. I so want to be on summer break without a care in the world, but the motivated side of me wanted to get my masters program done. Where is that same motivation now. There are so many distractions to be had and I have given into every single one of them. I twirl in my chair, I love the cat, I call for the dog, I watch TV, I mess around on the Internet. Next thing I know 4 hours have passed and beside learning what Lindsay Lohan is up to today... I am no further along in the the world of academia.
Gods of motivation help me now!!!!
Warning Cheesiness Ahead!!
So Matt and I celebrated surviving one whole year together. We decided to spend the night downtown Phoenix, a small getaway without really getting away. We stayed the night at the Clarendon Hotel, and that place is awesome. Modern and interesting, it fit our personalities perfectly. We had a fabulous dinner at Coup des Tartes and we drank wine at Cheurvont and sangria at the hotel. The whole night was fabulous and so was the company. I look back at this past year and I realize how good I have it with Matt. He
supports me, he lets me be in charge, he loves me unconditionally, he buys me flowers, and he will even rub my feet. This is all the while having to deal with my girly emotions and stressed out full time student/teacher role. It takes a strong man to handle this type of crazy and I am not sure people realize how strong he is. I found my soul mate 4 1/2 years ago and I am so lucky that he has stuck by my side through thick and thin. I look forward to what the years coming will bring us: a house, children, aging, and most importantly all of the memories that will come with it. I love you
Matty-Poo....thanks for loving me back!
